Monday, March 23, 2009

Shocked & a Bit Disappointed

Well, this post is all about me...not the little ones. Although, I have a cute post already formed on the Katie girl that is coming next. Anyhow, my original reason for the post is a confession of sorts. I have been praying daily with Kiersten for a woman at church who has breast cancer. We were in the same Bible study in the Fall and I got to know her a bit better. As the Fall went on she shared that she was down to her last options for treatment and just after Christmas she stopped treatment all together. Now this woman loves the Lord and has been talking about Him non-stop. She has this wonderful testimony and love for God even though He hasn't chosen to heal her.

So where do I come back in? Well, this past Sunday at church we saw this wonderful woman - but the change in her since just a few weeks ago is drastic. I was so disappointed God was not healing her. I had been praying daily with Kiersten and believing He would. I think I thought that because there were no other medical options that He would just do it and show Himself off. You know display His awesome power as only He can and in this case it would undeniable that it was all God. I cannot say it any other way than to say I was completely shocked at her state and disappointed He wasn't healing her.

I do know God knows far more that I do, so there is a plan..and obviously my plan isn't His plan. But the shock will take a little time to wear off. So since this has been weighing on my heart I sat down last night and turned to my Bible and the story of Job. At the end of chapter 1, when he has been stripped of all he held dear he responded - "The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; Blessed be the name of the LORD." (Job 1:21b) So as my heart struggles to get on the same page as my head, no matter what the Lord does or doesn't do for Miss Linda - Blessed be the name of the Lord.


Becca L. said...

I share your same struggles. Thank you for sharing the verse.

Margie said...

I hear you and am struggling with this myself. I have a hard time being in bible study without Miss Linda there with her smiling face. Wow on the verses you posted. I am going to have to look that one up myself.

momma's heart said...

This is so hard - when God doesn't do what seems to make sense. The more experiences one encounters like this, the more one's faith matures. We don't get much "behind the scenes" regarding the Lord's plans. What we do know is that they are always good plans, "working for the good of those who love him."

This is hard when children are involved and watching. Explaining that God is loving and merciful gets all that much harder, when these things stare a child in the face. I'll pray for your church body, and for you and your daughter and for your friend.

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